And along comes the next behind the screen post, on the this blog’s fifth Birthday! How crazy is that?! A big thanks for all your support and particularly you lovely readers that have been here since the start. Five years of The Lovely Drawer sounds totally crazy but even crazier is writing what this post is really about.
This behind the screen post was originally meant to follow on from the previous one on photography but I’m afraid life got in the way and everything’s been a bit up in the air. My promised photo editing post will have to be postponed until next time. In it’s place I thought it fitting to tell you what has actually been going down over here. These posts are called Behind The Screen posts after all. I think its important that all you beautiful readers know that life over at The Lovely Drawer ain’t always so lovely. I don’t want you to think its all perfectly styled images, endless DIY projects and Instagrammable food because life isn’t always that ‘magazine-worthy’. You may already have noticed things haven’t been great if you follow me on Instagram or snapchat and to be honest ‘not great’ is quite the understatement. The truth is I recently had a miscarriage and I feel compelled to talk about it because it was real and it still hurts and I know so many women feel they can’t say anything about this struggle. I can only imagine that keeping your lips sealed ends up fuelling the shame and feelings of isolation that surround the whole issue when it’s actually a devastatingly common thing to encounter. Something that has been so helpful over the last three weeks has been talking to many other women that have been through the same experience. The details may differ but the same loss is there, the loss of a baby and a derailed future that now looks very different to what you’d thought. You may see this as too much information and that’s totally fine. You don’t need to read on and I won’t be offended because I can’t see you.